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I have dreamed of the man that I am going to be with since I was a little girl. I have prayed for him every single day and tried to put together what he was like until I met you.

The second I met you, I knew I would end up falling for you. You were what I had been praying for, and it was finally my turn to love and be loved. I knew I loved you then. You met every need and exceeded every expectation I had for “the one.” It was just proof that God answers prayers.

My dad told me the weekend we met to not get my hopes up because it doesn’t always work out. But, I didn’t care. I risked heartbreak and went all in because I knew you were the only person in the world I would want to pursue. I didn’t want to be doubtful and risk ruining the potential of something great. It takes a lot to get my attention and keep it, and you kept it for eight months before we even got to meet. The weekend we met I was so nervous; I wanted to be impress you and be everything you wanted. I was so comfortable from the first night; it just felt right.

You wanted me to meet your family, you wanted to spend time with me, you wanted me.

All my life I have chased love and someone to love. I didn’t believe someone would make it so easy. I believed I would have to make a lot of sacrifices and changes in order to be loved. I believed I would have to give up on my perception of love and what it really meant. But I didn’t when I met you. It was easy to fall in love with you; you met every expectation.

Before you, I settled. I settled for men that didn’t deserve my heart and tried to make me believe that my image of love was wrong and never going to happen. I started to doubt love. But after all of that, I decided I wasn’t going to allow that to change my ambition to find the love that is stated within the Bible. I knew love was out there, and I didn’t care if I ended up alone for the rest of my life. I was not going to allow anyone to love me less than I deserved. I wasn’t going to force myself to love someone. Then you came along and it was easy. It was so easy to fall in love with you.

You love me for all the reasons that no one else has, and for that, I knew you were the one.

My heart is so full when you walk in the room; I told you once before, I get so excited just when you’re in my presence. You make me so happy. I have so much fun with you. We could be doing absolutely nothing together and there’s nothing in the world I would rather do.

I have my doubts and my moments of fear, just from past experiences. I am so in love with you that I am scared of losing you. You seriously, 100%, make my life complete. Everything I do, somehow relates back to you. I want to be the greatest woman you’ve ever met. I want to serve you as a woman of God. I want to push you in your relationship with Christ, to lead me in my relationship. I want to be attractive in all ways: physically, mentally, and emotionally (still working on emotionally, since I cry like every two minutes). I want my future to be with you, and I somehow end up planning my future with you in the back of my mind. I want to be fearless and confident in this relationship.

So just know, I am in it to win it. I may need my reassurance from time to time, but I don’t want anything else.

I don’t know how I haven’t scared you away yet, but I am so thankful you have stuck around. God really does provide, and I can’t thank Him enough for putting us together. Who would have known that a direct message on Instagram would lead us to this? You’re my person, and I love you unconditionally.

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One comment

  1. Aunt Nan · March 6

    I am so happy for you. You remind me of one of my all time favorite players from Lee. She & Matt have been married 9 years w/ two precious boys. At 13 she decided to not date unless she felt God had lead her to the one she would marry. Matt fell in love at first sight He was different, often bringing up God in their conversations. Jessica kept her distance. Finally, they began dating as best friends but setting rules such as not being alone in each other’s apt., etc. They encouraged other couples along the way. Their first kiss was on their wedding day. Her parents disowned her. She had given up her basketball scholarship her jr. year to marry Matt.They wanted her to marry a pastor & Matt was going to be a football coach. But the whole congregation answered when the preacher asked “who gives this woman.” The asst. pastor walked her down the aisle. She surprised Matt by singing Rebecca St. James song, “Wait for Me” in the middle of the ceremony. It still brings tears to my eyes. God is at the core of their marriage. He went from coaching to getting his masters & becoming a principal. She teaches kindergarten & they both flip houses now. Before kids they traveled,played and put on bb camps w/ Christians in Action. Struggles, yes! Miscarriages, yes! But God is there in ALL circumstances. May you & Blaine be blessed in your honoring HIM!

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