be engaged


“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34

Being present in my life is something I fail at daily. I am fearful, worrisome, and doubt the Lord’s plans for me.

I have always looked to the future instead of appreciating life as it is handed to me. “If only I can get through today,” which would turn into “if I can make it through this week,” which turned into months and eventually landed me here… a month from graduation. I was so concerned about the future and the “next big thing,” that my presence in the present was nonexistent.

Most of my time was spent dwelling on past or preparing for the future, rather than just living in the present moment. What we end up doing is passing through that moment on the way to somewhere else and we miss the moment. That’s how life ends up passing us by; we do it to ourselves. When living and focusing only on the past and the future, we miss the peace and freedom that is given to us in the now.

While planning for the future and preparing yourself is definitely ideal, I wish I would have made some mistakes, worried less, and soaked every moment in. I spent my time asking God to do things in my life instead of just thanking Him for what He has already done. I was telling Him my plans instead of just waiting to see how His were going to play out. I missed out on the full enjoyment of moments, enhancing relationships in the present, and being able to just relax.

This year, I really realized and meditated on the fact that all the wonderful things that happened in my life these were not according to my plans; they were all God’s plans for me.

Tomorrow isn’t even guaranteed so why am I spending all my time worrying about tomorrow, when I could be appreciating the time given to me today?

“Let us not look back in anger, nor forward in fear, but around in awareness.” ~James Thurber

I am learning to be engaged and present in the last few moments as an undergrad. There are so many big moments in my life still to come, so I am excited to just be fully aware of God’s presence in my life and not be so distracted by tomorrow. My time as a college student has come and gone so I no longer have a chance to sit in those moments and take full advantage of the time given to me (I act as if my life is ending now that I am graduating… RIP). Plans may change, but His goodness and faithfulness are still true.

His pursuit is greater than your ability to wander. He does not fail, His word does not fail, His promises do not fail, and His plans do not fail. In the middle of chaos, He will make a way.

“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'” Jeremiah 29:11

So, I am slowly learning that until God opens the next door, to praise Him in the hallway. I am looking forward to the many things to come in my life this next year and new season of “adulting.” For once in my life, I do not have a plan. Living life according to God’s timing!

“To everything, there is a season, and time for every purpose under Heaven.” Ecclesiastes 3:1

Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever circumstances come up when the time comes.

One comment

  1. greglairblog · April 17, 2018

    Encouraging words, to be engaged, I like it. I will be “teenaging” …. Just trying to stay young in my heart and mind


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